It is Friday night as I sit here crying. I have a flight booked back to Honolulu for tomorrow morning.
Lennie was rushed into hospital a few hours ago with a perforated bowel. The cancer has spread and his vital signs are not good due to the fecal matter that is seeping into his system. The doctors believe that he will not survive the surgery and that even if he does, he will remain in ICU for maybe 3 weeks, full of tubes and die there. The decision has been made to not try for the difficult surgery and instead make him comfortable. He is not expected to live through the weekend.
Dear God,
Please let me make it back to Lennie one more time. I have loved him so much and my heart is breaking that I may not kiss his lips just one more time.
Kathryn